Wednesday, January 21, 2009
i have decided to just blog in wordpress so here's e linkhttp://dreamerhart.wordpress.com/
And i realized that like many ppl always put this, so here it is:
I HAVE MOVED
obviously...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
i've finally decided to move to wordpress. just got e acc and posted up my first post, but because i dun actually have the time to fiddle around with the thing right now, i'm just gonna leave it and stick to blogger first and then move when the holidays are here...can't wait.
There's just something about starting over afresh...
Thursday, January 15, 2009
the last few days have been absolutely crazy with deadlines... after open house, it was time to really get the work cleared no matter how tired and dead i felt. sooo let's see...had a final individual assessed speech on wed so i actually needed to spend tuesday preparing. class ended ard 6 i think, but i then went to the airport to send Selina off to UK :( and her flight was t lik 11.20pm so i only left e airport ard 10.45... had dinner at 12am. haha... by the time i finally got down to work, it was aorund 1am and i stayed up till 4.20am to finish off the speech and all. and oh wow my speech was at the ungodly hour of 8am... which meant that i had to get up at 6am, which then meant that i had exactly 1 1/2 hours of sleep. and i didn't feel all that tired surprisingly cause i didn't exactly fall asleep during that time i had with my presious bed...
sppech went ok, spent time in sch catching up with ppl, went in for matt and brandon's radio class so that i didn't have to go for mine today. did a little of radio assignment with rachel, then headed off to town with matt, bev, bernice, benedict, chai hong and rainer to celebrate brandon's 18th. Swensen's was an absolute ripoff... never again will i eat there except for their ice cream!
headed home with chai hong cause i was exhausted and i did not forsee any rest that night because radio stereo assignment was due the next day(today) and well... nothing was done yet!
Long story short, i reached home, learnt how to use ProTools... it made my mac die twice and it takes up so much power! thought my charger was gonna do up in flames or sth...
So in the end i finished it ard 2.30am? and came to sch to transfer it to an MD and finish up the paperwork. So in 2 days , i've had a maximum of 7 hours of sleep. it doesn't sound that bad, but if you know me, you know that sleep is essential in my life. 7 hours in one night isn't even enough much less 2! totally looking forward to going home tonight after class at 6 and sleeping timm tmr... but i have driving tmr and then i need to go down to town to interview ppl at tattoo parlours (haha) and then make my way down to cornerstone.... i have no idea how though... need the singapore directory and the bus guide...
for now...
need
sleep.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Swamped....projects, deadlines, assignments and gosh everything... i can't quite keep a to do list in my head anymore cause it's too long.
I really cant wait for sem break.
on another note, i got to drive from Ubi to Kovan today:) it was quite scary cause when i left Ubi, it was almost 6pm and the roads there were so congested and there were so many cars. i finally realize just how many things you actually need to look out for when driving on the road. still need to improve on my crank course and s-curve and my left turning. but it was fun:) when i drove outside, the max i went was liek what 40km/h? and my instructor kept asking me to slow down... he even asked my why i didn't speed in the circuit but kept speeding on the road... it wasn't speeding! oh well, hope i get to do it again or sth :)
Happy Birthday Brandon Chong!
Friday, January 09, 2009
suddenly, my msn buddy's gone. the one i can count on seeing late into the night (ok maybe not that late) but the one who's there every night... yes my poor friend Ben has gone off to NS. sorry i couldn't send him off at pasir ris this morning cause i had open house today... actually only got up at 8am, the time he was supposed to be there i think... heh...went out with him, sam, germaine and lem on wed. after lunch and e movie (it was so sick that you just had to laugh or cry... ) it was left with sam, me and ben. went to bras basah, and then e library and while waiting for kai to join us, e three of us were sitting outside e national library. sam and i were trying to get ben to cut mohawk, and ben was trying his best to resist, which he did in the end.
had 2 2/2 hours of sleep that night cause i rushed my essay outline, i decided to do an essay on cheese in the end... almost died on the first day of open house. but OH was just so awesome... today was great too... ok but i must say that my feet and my throat are protesting loudly. stood up the whole of yesterday and today and had to give tours on the bus or compete with the crazy loud sound system and ICT and HMS so every time i had to talk to anyone i had to shout at the top of my lumgs... so did not help my already hurt throat... Sam, Isa and KS came over to NP today and phil brought them around. sad i couldn't cause i was totally tied up with ambs duties the whole time. we dun even get a break really. was msging ben that e only time we get a break and e only time we get to sit is when we go to e toilet... and no slacking in the toilet either!
But i am really tired, so off to bed i go. tomorrow will be a better day... the crowds are gonna be absolutely nuts...
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
School has started. I guess i was feeling a little ugh before it all. that's why i decided not to join in the festivities last year, to welcome the new year and all and decided to do my own version of the countdown at home, with my trusty laptop and my neglected socpsy text. I just suddenly felt as if eerything was so meaningless... sounds like ecclesiastes... but i just suddenly felt as if all this celebration and false joviality on the surface was so shallow and... meaningless. there was so much swimming underneath the masks of cheerfulness that everyone wore. so much pain, worry, uncertainty, if only one bothered to stay awhile more, talk awhile more, look a little deeper... so yeah i started the new year in a pretty reflective and pessimistic mood.going back to school was pretty normal. still fighting the whole lack of sleep feeling cause last weekend was simply so packed, and yet so unspeakably awesome. i believe the church has really broken through something... the atmosphere was so very different and not just in JG but in the main service as well. as if despite the forecasts of gloom and doom in this year, the church, everyone in the church, had decided to say that no we will not sit back and blame God, but we will still say that He has been, is and will be good, and we will praise His name. so spiritually, it was really uplifting, but my body just couldn't keep up i guess cause my eyes are still giving me problems and i'm still coughing a little... and i went back to school feeling so tired.
Met so many ppl in sch whom i haven't seen in like a month but felt like i haven't seen them in like years. really enthusiastic greetings everywhere and i realize how many friends i have made in my time in poly. really good friends who care. and i'm grateful.
talked with Keann and as usual, i always find myself telling him things i can't or won't share with anyone else. he may not understand everything that i feel or say exactly, but he's such a really great friend. he listens and he doesn't judge, but he encourages. we're both excited at what God has in store for NP this year and the next. But we need a lot of prayer, lots and lots of it, we need to know the importance of time and also be able to identify and catch opportunities. it seems like such a huge task lies ahead and yet, i feel that God will be there with us every step of the way. yet i am compelled to say that we need honest, on-our-knees prayers. we need to want it and Him with a passion and hunger like Jacob when he was struggling with Jesus. we need to say that we will not let go until we catch the anointing and blessing because without this we can do nothing. on our own, we are and can do nothing that will bear fruit.
sent lynette off at the airport today. a whole bunch of us were there to send her off. met Ben at city hall cause we were going in the same direction and then e whole group of like 15+ of us went for dinner at Popeyes and then sent Lynette of. we then migrated to coffee bean and chilled. had a really fun time just sitting there and talking with people i've known for years and years... i looked around at this bunch of people. we weren't all the same age, but we all know each other for at least 5 years, and we've been through so very much together. i looked around and i realized that in the group of 10 of us, 9 of us are leaders in the youth group. it's so encouraging to see others running the race with you. people who have been running with you since young, and are still running strong. not that we've never fell or faltered, but each time we have picked ourselves up, with much encouragement from each other, and continued running, running after the presence of God.
i hope that i have and will make friends like this in poly, ppl whom i will still call up years down the road, or meet for dinner or coffee and we'll still be close and running the race together. only time will tell.
and i was just about to go off to do research... at like 12.30am? but it's now 2.3oam and i'm just so very very tired in spirit, when i wasn't 2 hours ago. talked to someone and that conversation really made me almost cry. in frustration, maybe a little anger, compassion... just so many things... tomorrow is another day...
wait it is tomorrow...
God please never let me lose the heart of a child. to want to simply please You. keep my heart soft and sensitive towards You. Never let me become so jaded or cynical.
Friday, January 02, 2009
Sometimes, after watching shows like 90210 and Gossip Girl, i wish my life were like theirs. i wish my life were like those of the rich and famous and like that portrayed in the shows or even in the media.And it's at times like those that i know that i'm either crazy, too tired, or... i watched too many episodes...
haha.